When I was diagnosed with kaposi’s sarcoma the treatment recommended to me was AZT but I refused it. I thought the side effects would outweigh any possible value. I started looking into every possible alternative. As far as I was concerned the holistic approach was the only way to go. I learned to change my thoughts and beliefs and this really helped me after the diagnosis. I went to see a nutritionist and a man who does aura cleansing. I learned about acupuncture. No one else could heal me, I believe. We are our own physicians.

            I started to grow on every level. Emotional, psychological, spiritual. I was finding out who I really was. Knowing the truth, sticking to the truth, telling the truth and living the truth. My life became very precious to me. I didn’t have time to be foolish anymore. I had a few sessions of rebirthing which helped. I also used Bach Flower treatments and homeopathics. But the most important part of getting well was the spiritual growth. I was in remission eight months after I was diagnosed. I didn’t have a doubt in my mind that I could heal myself and I have no doubt that others can do the same.

            Unfortunately many people with AIDS have a death wish. I know I had felt suicidal in the early stages. Many people don’t love themselves enough. People don’t believe in themselves. They give up too easily. They listen to the media. They become part of the statistics because they actually believe that AIDS will kill them. I’ve lost a few friends. Right from the start they thought they were going to die. Their lifestyle and their belief systems never changed.

            My old lifestyle included too much drinking, poor diet, stress, recreational drugs. I was sexually promiscuous as well. I believe the disease is transmitted sexually but you attract the virus through the very fear of thinking you will contract it. I feel that I bought the disease on. I did this by eating poor quality food, being sexually overactive, feeling I was unloved and desiring attention.

            I’ve learned to be calm. I do creative visualization, meditation and spiritual mind treatments. It’s knowing that all is well, that all is perfect in this reality that you bring this perfection into manifestation. I know that when I die it will be the start of a new level. I’ll go when I’m supposed to. It has been pointed out that when some people are told by their doctors they have six months to live, they die within weeks. Doctors have no right to play God. People believe their doctors. They die because of a self fulfilling prophecy. Belief and faith determine life and death.

            I had much to learn. I learned about the power of thought and was able to prove it to myself. I had to put it to the test immediately because if I hadn’t I would’ve died. I’m not dead and I’m not going to die of AIDS. I’m in good health now. My experience with AIDS has taught me that people can learn to heal themselves through nutrition and thought. It’s not only my disease that’s been healed but my relationships with people, including my family. I’ve made new friends and enjoy the work I do as well. Your greatest fear is the very thing you will create. We must learn that fear is nothing, it has no power. With faith you can know that all is well with your body and your life.