I have thought a great deal about how I came to get AIDS. It’s true there is a virus but the damage to the immune system starts way before the virus manifests. I believe I was immune suppressed at least three years before the symptoms of AIDS manifested. Doctors suppressed my immune system with vaccines and antibiotics. Junk foods, fast foods and antibiotics are factors that weaken the immune system. The last time I really felt good was about three years before the onset of AIDS.

            I am aware of the strong connection between the foods we eat and our health.

I plan on looking into all forms of alternative healing. You need to begin doing things that make you feel good about yourself. Try to heal the wounds of poor self esteem. Care about yourself so you learn to pay attention to what you eat, how much you sleep, what kinds of toxins you take into your body and mind. I have prayed a lot during my illness but when I pray I don’t plead with God for my life. I affirm my health. I express love and thankfulness for another day of life.

            When one is ill, the process of recovery is slow and difficult. The best way to heal is to make sure there’s always plenty of laughter. Laughter is very healing. My deepest emotions have been opened now. I savor every moment of life. I feel rushes of tenderness. I am much more sensitive to everything. Meditation is a way of life for me now. I am working on my thought patterns and belief system, trying to get more in touch with my higher self. This is a difficult but exciting task.

            The best thing I could tell another person is LIVE, whether you have the virus or not. Take each day and make it a day where you give and receive love. Do something to make yourself feel better every day. Enjoy the brief time we have here. Learn to live in the present. If there is something negative in your life, get away from it. Be affectionate and enjoy the healing aspect of affection. Keep reaching for a better state of health, physically, emotionally and spiritually.